Jul. 29, 2019

My Brain Literally Storms

     Making any kind of plans for individuals like me who have a tendency to be...um...a little disorganized, unfocused, anxious...to name a few, may not quite look the same as it does for others. Or does It? In reading a number of testimonials, comments, blogs and articles, the same sentiment rings throughout. In fact, it sounds like my own, so I feel I am not alone.

     The anticipation of a fresh start (like the school year about to start) is always so exciting to me. I actually make a visual board, cutting out pictures of slim, stylish people I aspire to look like. Organizational solutions, cute home decor, places I hope to visit, and pictures of volunteers serving others are all included...not really, but actually sounds good now that I see it in print. In actuality, I have gone as far as streaming photos together with similar types of pictures and images, set to upbeat, inspiring music. It was a fantastic project that was so much fun and enjoyable to create; unfortunately, it proved to be useless to me in the course of achievements across the long year, or even for a whole month (although it did provide short-lived motivation for me when I took the time to review it). But, in the end, I felt more disconnected, more impulsive and disorganized and more anxious than ever. What to do?

     I still like the fresh start feeling of starting something new and experienced more personal growth that aligned to my goals than in the past by employing an odd piece in the beginning.  After watching it work for a while now,I have concluded that this crazy method works for me. In fact, I use this same method in a scaled down version for each month, week and day or special project. Even this year's garden began this way. My dad always said I had my head in the clouds.

     First, I take a piece of plain paper. A poster board probably makes more sense, but its vast blankness shuts me down. The copy paper can also grow and still fold up into a folder, which helps me a great deal. Colored gel pens or fine line colored markers have been my utensils of choice. My orginal piece looks more like a child's doodle sheet instead of a list of ideas or wants; definitely not a typical to-do list. In my main "clouds," I state positive affirmations (in present tense as if they are already accomplished). The picture shows the beginnings of such a sheet, with growth beginning at the "Music Cloud." 

     At this point, I need to interject that I am not particularly fond of artifical plants and flowers. As pitiful as I am at keeping indoor plants, I will not don my home with imitations. I enjoy experiencing the seasons and the natural cycle from seed, to growth, to fruitfulness and harvest, to seed again. As with the growth of the plants I grow in my garden, so is my cloud creation. I begin each year with a new resolution cloud formation. Although just my third year, I will still daringly call it my tradition to relish in my year's accomplishments, then (safely) light my cloud creation on fire at midnight on New Year's Eve. I have put the past year to rest and opened up a brand new creation for the upcoming year. But, please be careful about the fire part. We are lucky enough to have a fireplace, but on second thought, just shred it and make confetti!!

     This plan of year-long activity may not work for anyone but me. Without the complete visual, it may not be fully understood by anyone but me. Therefore, I do not make any claims for this to guarantee anyone a fruitful 2019-2020 school year or other project. However I will continue to use it, and I will hopefully provide the completed visual of one before it becomes confetti. If I can provide more detail or answer any questions, please contact me at the "Contact Vee" tab at the top of the page.

     After developing the clouds, my brainstorming part, I set up folders for the actual actions I take. These folders are the meat of any project to which I have committed. The folder will contain lists, drafts and ideas that I have "rained" from my clouds. These folders will or do also contain my final draft, completed project or pictures of completed projects. So, all-in-all, it is a four-part process. First, my ideas rise up and form clouds. Second, my clouds continue to grow until they eventually fall like rain. Third, the rain puddles into rough drafts or outlines. Then fourth and finally, they nourish the growth of a final product.

     Having said this, I encourage you to continue to grow each and every day. Discover methods that work for you and cull the ones that don't. Seek growth instead of settling for contentment, careful not to miss what you have and be extremely grateful. I equate contentment with stagnation rather than satisfaction. So my wish for you is to feel a sense of satisfaction in all of your accomplishments, big and small, and use this to continue to grow.

     Moving forever forward...